Meditation and Related...

Indeed.......but "NNN......not just sss...ss...some some of the time....Instantly"...


That part isn't^^^...and the rest of the song through the music itself...What is the message being conveyed?


Listen for a minute or 3 and contemplate...


You are a music person! *blink* 

^^ I say feel free to share your story and thoughts, it may help someone who needs it (whether they know it or not). and if anyone isn't interested in reading them, they can skip this thread.

I appreciate that thought, but if there is no interaction, I will be honest, Im not that interested in spending my time communcating it. 

^ I see what you mean about attachments, but staying in the Present and letting your story fall away makes those also fall away. They just doesnt matter anymore....'Roll away the dew'

As for money, for example, I never cared much about it before (lol-wouldnt be a teacher otherwise), but now it is even less important and makes no difference to me. Indeed, I have to have it to provide shelter and food, but it is only a tool.

Unfortunately, the term 'God' just does not encompass the absolute incomprehensible greatness of the Consciousness of Existence Itself. There is really no term that can do It justice...and that is just why I have always called It 'It'. I guess that is why some cultures say not to speak the name, or it was secret/forbidden etc depending on belief.

I will try to relate later in more detail what I experienced when I broke through to the spiritual side. It is so intertwined with my experience at the hospital with people helping me and then realizing there was NO WAY that all happened by coincidence.

What happened when I got home was remarkable and I will try to tell it as worthy of the experience I truly had in those moments. Although I do not have a literal 'voice' in my head now when I speak to that side, knowing comes through the inner self and I can ask anything (pertaining to spiritual) and an answer is there immediately. I went through some serious 'questioning' here, and that is part of my experience I will tell later.

In reference to what you said about a general spirit treetophigh , imo, It works through our spirits, because It is a part of us, as we are part of Existence. We are here to help each other, although we have complete free will over whether we come back to serve our self (like Chump) or serve others.

No doubt you have experienced Oneness and know that all things are connected if you have done some space exploration. That is just a starting point, but it is really the main thing and all one needs to realize.

Just get quiet....then ask, and be ready to Hear 


The deemz will give a window, but if you want lasting comprehension, practice getting centered in quiet moments...

Morning is good when you are fresh and staring the day...Also when you are just waking up and still drowsy 




I will relate my experience in more detail later when I get back from the parents' place...Im getting ready to leave for sun n' relaxation....yay

Well, I don't sleep very much anymore...Yes, much just like resting...and then some noise will happen to wake me up after a couple hours. It's been interesting.

I will try to relate what happened and do it justice, but language can only convey so much when relating these things as the deeper meaning must be felt with the heart.

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So, I will start the morning of when I went to surgery...

I had to be there at 7:30 or so and of course I was up at the crack of dawn getting stuff ready. I had been using some Angel Oracle cards for a few weeks and pulled a card. Of course, it was in line with what I was dealing with in daily life. Thomas and my mother brought me to the hospital and all went well with surgery. Waking up was really weird and I had an IV in each hand. There was a nurse sitting beside me and letting me know what was going on & etc.

Skip forward a couple days and they had finally gotten my pain meds worked out-ugh-long story there-and my friend was visiting and I was jokingly showing her how I could ge on the bed now wih my knees first.....

Not to make too long of an explanation, but I accidentally snapped a port off this thing called a 'wound vac' that was attached to me. I had a couple of blood drains too, one on each side, that I had to be careful of also. I called the nurse and let her know that had happened. She said it wasnt going to be as easy as snapping it back on like I had thought. She left and came back a minute later and said she found the lady hat was the 'expert' with the wound vac standing at the desk out there and she'd be in shortly. ...and holy shit, she WAS the expert. She came in and took a look and said, "Oh, this needs a new cartridge and a new tube, and by the way we are going to have to re-do that entire dressing'. So she disappeared for a minute and showed back up with this little toolbox full of shit and she started whipping out stuff left and right. Then another nurse wandered in and asked if she needed help and so there was one on either side and they commenced to working on me. She pulled the wound vac fabric off and said, "This should be completely dry"...as it was soaking wet, I said that was probably an infection waiting to happen and she agreed. At any rate they completely redid it and sealed it all around with that skin tape so I was able to take a shower when I got home w/o fucking it up.

Finally, I spoke to a nurse and a social worker (on separate occasions, but the same day) for quite a long time about their sons and the fact that they were having such a terrible experiences in school. One had ADHD and an abusive father (divorced) and another was older, 15, with high functioning autism. At any rate, I encouraged both of them to contact the school and they both said that God had sent them into my room today. Aawwweee!

Enough for now-will finish later today



*Damnit-the 't' on my keyboard is fucked up...some t's may be missing lol

So once I got home on Friday night (the surgery had been on Tuesday) I was pretty hobbly and Tom helped me a lot get set up and such...He went to his place and I drew my card the next morning....It was the SAME card. I had shuffled them profusely and picked at random.

Suddenly, I really looked at the card and my heart had this huge swell of feeling and I had an epiphany, I guess, or satori, that not only was there the 'God' that pervaded all Existence, but that the same was also a PERSONAL God....all that stuff at the hospital did not happen by coincidence, and as SOON as I had that thought, an immediate OTHER inner voice said in a matter of fact way, 'Yes, I am'.

I, of course, immediately paid attention, because I KNEW that was NOT me, but still, I questioned it. I suddenly felt different in my innermost being....something had changed. I felt floaty and light. I walked to the bathroom and continued to question, and It said I would have affirmations that this was real and not just my own thoughts looping. The signs and synchroniciites I could see everywhere made it impossible to deny later.

But back to the moments directly after....As I was walking out of the bathroom, I thought, "Well, what do you want me to do?" It said, 'Get The Bible"...and I thought at some level...'Oh, here we go"....and in my innermost being It whispered, 'You have studied much, but you should know more of my Son"....So I went and got the text and I knew that It wanted me to open it randomly and It would show me what It wanted me to see.

So I did. I kid you not, it opened to one side (at the top heading) The Crucifixtion and the other side The Resurrection. So I started reading Ch 10 and immediately it was breaking my heart, and it makes me cry even now to type it, and I said in my spirit, 'I cant read this...Its too hard...they killed you for coming to teach how to love each other and that All is One....all the ancient texts are true, but so is this one."

But also I questioned and said, 'The one thing I could never understand about Christianity was, "Why would the God of the Universe send down a man to die on a cross? It seems like such a man-made idea to explain God. I could never accept it"...And then it directed me to the next page, but I knew it without reading it, and It replied, "To show men that there was a Spirit in each of them...an Eternal Spirit...I give them the Holy Spirit to be with them, but they have their own as well" And then I cried and cried...but it wasnt a sad cry. It was a cry of understanding and I was free and flying!

Since then a lot has happened with opening to new levels of spiritual newness. I continue to read all manner of texts and glean understanding. Learning new stuff each day and getting repeating messages my life is going to change quite a bit....so we shall see where this sleigh ride takes me.

I hope my words have done my experience justice.

It's awesome that you're in a spiritual rebirthing time, vibyl! I think so much of what you are describing from your experience and then some of the personal revelations you have gained from them are lessons in remembering to take personal inventories and check ourselves if and how much we are opening ourselves to the flow and options life has for us. So often our hangups limit our personal experience and then that of our connectedness with the energies and life around us. We get so stuck in our routines, obligations and the safety of walls we put up that limit risks of disappointment, fear and all these avoidance that, in the end, if we'd just face, we'd be growing in much bigger ways.

At the same time, that openess and those periods of surrender often come at times we don't expect but are a time of large need, maybe response to culmination of life stressors, trauma, loss, when our spirit reaches a point of need that it just cries out, either breakthrough or breakdown, a change will come.

I know for myself, I would have to take some slow time to start chipping away at some complicated barriers before that flow would really start moving through me right now. I know some of the blocks that need to be moved or removed but sometimes they seem to be holding up the larger structure of life that I'm still holding onto, even though it's not the structure I want to ultimately settle into. Not to make it about me, just relating to what you're experiencing through what feels like similar experiences I've had

Anyway, I hope you continue to grow a ton during this wave of spiritual clarity and openness. I've enjoyed hearing your excitement and love seeing your gratitude toward life. It's been inspiring.