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Post by hokiejoe on May 6, 2024 6:31:46 GMT -7
I promise you that she wouldn't. She would never be the same.
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Post by SolarGarlic 🧀 on May 6, 2024 7:01:24 GMT -7
Would a career change help? New town? Join a club or special interest group?
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Post by ferd on May 6, 2024 7:13:44 GMT -7
Joining in to say we love you, Pete. The world would not be as nice a place without you in it.
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Post by bear on May 6, 2024 7:30:53 GMT -7
One day at a time Venk. I wish I knew how to help you or to bring you peace but I think there are other options to pivot to a more liveable situation. I would love to talk about anything if you get some down time. I need a DC comics knowledge drop in my life
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Post by EddieBlake on May 6, 2024 9:09:40 GMT -7
I've been trying for years to find similar folks and friends, but it just doesn't seem like it's going to ever happen. People are just solitary creatures and folks who "should" be my friends don't treat me too well. I'm so exhausted and I can't relocate anytime soon.
My life feels like a prison.
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Post by treetophigh on May 6, 2024 11:22:25 GMT -7
This really sucks dude. I wish I knew something to recommend or something to say that could help but it sounds like you've been putting a lot of effort over the years to kind of find footing. Often when you share, it sounds like you do have things and people you are invested in and them in you. I know that all can fluctuate and the things that make life fulfilling one day maybe don't feel the same or are unavailable the next day.
Mental health and addiction issues (I can't separate the 2) are so multi layered and complexly woven into what makes us who we are so it's so hard when that is the thing that drags us down. For me, sometimes the challenge of moving through what sometimes feels like hopelessness is part of what keeps me from just giving up. I'm lucky to be able to find ways to keep going and know that some folks have the depression etc. cloud so much deeper and darker.
I have friends with some pretty serious mental health disorders and some that have been suicidal, some that I have lost.
The ones that are still around and are in functional places that still find joy are those that surrendered to in patient treatment (not just substance abuse) that focused on solo and group therapies across many contexts and foci, and very much on working on finding medication options that find a safe and healthy balance for someone to continue to build thier life from a stronger foundation.
Loneliness is excruciating. It's so tricky because even when you DO have a lot of people in your life at a given time, loneliness will still cover you if you're not able to give enough of yourself and also feel reciprocated.
For myself, I am so restless and my solution has been to put myself out and about, among strangers in various settings, often, and open myself up to the universe essentially. Just be out and do whatever it is I'm doing among strangers and sometimes, actually most often interactions with folks that I could have never predicted or manufactured myself illuminate my experience in a way that reminds me that I, and everyone, is valuable as a default. Without our identities and ideals and dreams and regrets and fears and all that, we are a component of the everything and without the pressure and expectations of my identity or character it's where I can exhale and remember that it's all fine the way it is, even when it's not. It's like I'm finally myself once I've stopped trying to be somebody.
I don't expect that to be relatable necessarily, but maybe some useful perspective for someone.
It's always worth it to stay and keep working through this life stuff. I sincerely encourage you to talk with your trusted mental health doctor or therapist or friend about looking into some in patient treatment options. It may be the difference in saving your life and avoiding the pain and suffering that we all and your family would be burdened with if something were to happen to you.
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Post by Zeewada on May 6, 2024 12:12:53 GMT -7
Come on Pete. Lifes an adventure, don't give up. Smile and sing man. Bank some money and go explore. Much love. Hang in there please.
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Post by dbg465285 on May 6, 2024 13:52:01 GMT -7
Keep your head up Venk. Talk to people more than you want to. You are loved
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 14:01:49 GMT -7
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 14:11:09 GMT -7
so ive been stalking these other schizophrenics'....https://youtu.be/PLL2ie9ZCwU
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Post by ancientchad on May 6, 2024 15:46:13 GMT -7
And yes, something did happen. Drain pipe became dislodged behind a wall while snaking. We didn't know until several condos suffered water damage. I'm the boss and it was on my watch so... Today didn't go so well.
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 15:50:06 GMT -7
you win again
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 15:54:58 GMT -7
This really sucks dude. I wish I knew something to recommend or something to say that could help but it sounds like you've been putting a lot of effort over the years to kind of find footing. Often when you share, it sounds like you do have things and people you are invested in and them in you. I know that all can fluctuate and the things that make life fulfilling one day maybe don't feel the same or are unavailable the next day. Mental health and addiction issues (I can't separate the 2) are so multi layered and complexly woven into what makes us who we are so it's so hard when that is the thing that drags us down. For me, sometimes the challenge of moving through what sometimes feels like hopelessness is part of what keeps me from just giving up. I'm lucky to be able to find ways to keep going and know that some folks have the depression etc. cloud so much deeper and darker. I have friends with some pretty serious mental health disorders and some that have been suicidal, some that I have lost. The ones that are still around and are in functional places that still find joy are those that surrendered to in patient treatment (not just substance abuse) that focused on solo and group therapies across many contexts and foci, and very much on working on finding medication options that find a safe and healthy balance for someone to continue to build thier life from a stronger foundation. Loneliness is excruciating. It's so tricky because even when you DO have a lot of people in your life at a given time, loneliness will still cover you if you're not able to give enough of yourself and also feel reciprocated. For myself, I am so restless and my solution has been to put myself out and about, among strangers in various settings, often, and open myself up to the universe essentially. Just be out and do whatever it is I'm doing among strangers and sometimes, actually most often interactions with folks that I could have never predicted or manufactured myself illuminate my experience in a way that reminds me that I, and everyone, is valuable as a default. Without our identities and ideals and dreams and regrets and fears and all that, we are a component of the everything and without the pressure and expectations of my identity or character it's where I can exhale and remember that it's all fine the way it is, even when it's not. It's like I'm finally myself once I've stopped trying to be somebody. I don't expect that to be relatable necessarily, but maybe some useful perspective for someone. It's always worth it to stay and keep working through this life stuff. I sincerely encourage you to talk with your trusted mental health doctor or therapist or friend about looking into some in patient treatment options. It may be the difference in saving your life and avoiding the pain and suffering that we all and your family would be burdened with if something were to happen to you. I dont do drugs. i dont even smoke weed btw.
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 15:56:31 GMT -7
thank you tho.
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 15:59:37 GMT -7
if YOU need a fucking hug kid.; I got you man.
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 16:07:38 GMT -7
how did the Chinese woman end up at Pollacks house?
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Post by lovejahlive on May 6, 2024 17:17:57 GMT -7
Melba Ruth Thomas is my cousin.
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Post by thundercat on May 6, 2024 19:26:50 GMT -7
For everyone that needs the vibes. This is for you.
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Post by EddieBlake on May 7, 2024 7:06:43 GMT -7
Today isn't going any better.
Woke up and proceeded to break down at least two times.
No end in sight.
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Post by ferd on May 7, 2024 7:28:57 GMT -7
I'm sorry Venk. I hope you can find the strength to keep going. We love you
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